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THE ORIGINAL TRANS PORN STAR, BUCK ANGEL

He has been a legend of the fetish World, the porn world across Two Decades and countless books, media appearances etc and we wanted to go back to the start to find how it all came to be up to and through his transition. (In a planned follow-on interview, we will be asking Buck about his campaigning, Trans Rights, Media presence, his wonderful Trans Toy Range and the state of the Trans Union at the start of the 2020’s).

As a child did people treat you as a boy or a girl, most parents seem to unknowingly treat their trans children differently?
Growing up my parents totally treated me like a boy. I dressed like one and they even called me “Buck” even though my girl name was “Susan”. I played sports with all the boys on the street. I have two sisters and I always find it quite interesting that they chose me to be the boy of the family. I really believe that is because I am and my parents knew that from the start.

So were you a tomboy?
Yes, I was a tomboy, But really, I do think more than that. I really think I was a boy. It was very normal for my parents and everyone around to treat me as male. It was never a problem until puberty hit me and I started growing breasts and my period came. That’s when all the trouble for me and my family started.  

I saw photos of you when you were modelling, was this an attempt to be the best as a female. Most trans people become the extreme of their biological sex?
That’s a very interesting thing to say. Not for me. I hated being female. It was more of a way for me to make money. I was never happy doing that. I was always drunk and stoned. The make-up artists would always want me to look at myself after they finished putting make-up on me. I could never do that. I always felt so out of place in that situation. I think it’s cool now that I have the photos because it really shows my transformation. Even though some people say” Why would you go from such a hot woman to such an ugly man!” haaa!!  

How long after your modelling did it take you to realize you were trans gendered?
I always knew I was a man but had no way of knowing how to deal with that. I actually went to a therapist who was a gay woman and she just kept telling me that i was a male identified female, Now what the hell is that? She had no training in dealing with trans men. At the time there was really no info on this. I was so tortured because I was always telling people that I was really a man but no one could understand what I was saying. They just thought I was a butch lesbian. People have no idea how hard that was for me. To be told I was basically crazy all the time. No wonder I turned to drugs and alcohol.       

Having been such a well-known model in the 80s how did family and friends react to your decision to change your sex?
At first ALL of my “friends” dumped me like a hot potato! They had no idea what I was doing. Many of these women were gay identified and thought of me as a traitor. They could not understand why I would want to do this. Now after many years some of them have actually called me up to ask how they go about starting the change.
I had not been in touch with my family for a while. They could not deal with my behaviour and my drug addiction lies and stealing so they basically shut me out of their lives. It was the right thing to do. After I started my change I reached out to them, I had 2-3 years of sobriety at the time. I remember calling up my Mom and saying” Hi Mom I just want to tell you that I am having a sex change” She said” Well if this is what is going to make you happy in life then we love you and support you” I remember just standing there with the telephone to my ear and starting to cry. I had not had a relationship with my parents for so many years and I knew at that moment things were about to change. 

Buck most people have no idea about female to male trans gender surgery, what it involves please could you tell us?
This is true. I have worked hard to bring awareness of us to the mainstream. People always say to me ” WOW I never knew men like you existed.” For me the SRS consisted of just having my breasts removed. I also started hormone therapy two years before my surgery. The hormone therapy consists of shooting 1cc of testosterone every 2 weeks. I have been doing this ever since. I have to do the hormone therapy for the rest of my life as I have no testicles to produce testosterone. Some men choose to go further and have penis construction surgery, Whereas they mould a penis onto your body. I have chosen not to go this route. For many reasons but the most was that I really did not like the construction of the penis.

How long do you have to take testosterone injections before you notice a change in your body?
This is funny. I remember after my very first shot feeling like I was already changing, Though this is of course impossible. I think that i actually started to see change after two months. But it has taken me years and years of bodybuilding to achieve this look. You do not get a body just by shooting testosterone,   

What was the first thing you noticed changing hair’ muscle tone’ voice?
The first thing was the voice. I noticed that squeaky kind of way a boy’s voice sounds when he starts puberty. The thing is my voice still is that way! hahhaa. So many people comment on my voice and how I sound like a “woman” or that they can tell I was a woman before because of it. This is of course all bullshit. I think people just need to find something on my body to pick on because they cannot believe that I used to be female. It took years before hair growth even started on my face. I actually started losing my hair on my head first. 

So how long did it take to recover from your mastectomy?
That surgery was a nightmare for me. I had the hardest time coming out of it. It took about three months before I was feeling in anyway normal. I also wore my compression garment 2 months longer than the doctor told me to. I think that was the best thing I could do for my chest as it helped to push all my skin back into place. I remember being the happiest man in the world after I had my breasts removed. I cannot tell you the relief in getting rid of something that has always just been so horrible to have on your body.   

I know that the penis does not make’eth the man! Did you ever consider having any more surgery?
What many people don’t realize is that I wanted to have the penis surgery. I did years of research but could never find the penis surgery right for me. Looking back now I feel very lucky that I did not choose that path. Because I would not be here telling you this story nor would I have been able to become a pioneer in the adult entertainment business. I believe everything happens for a reason.   

Male to female trans people can have a hard time on the gay scene, how have people treated you?
In the beginning of making my films of course I got tons of shit from the gay men and women and even the trans male community ( this is why I am not a big supporter of community-they love to put everything in its box just like everyone else!) But as my work grew and people saw that I am doing more for awareness and that what I have to say was more than gay, straight, bi or trans they started to accept my message of empowerment. Now I am really supported by the gay scene. Funny how those things work out.  

Before surgery, which male would you have most liked to look like?
I wanted so bad to look like GI JOE! He to me represented such masculinity. I remember when i was a kid and playing with my GI Joe and dreaming of one day being just like him. 
 

So how do you see your sexuality; are you gay or straight or is it the person and not their gender you are attracted to?
To this question I always tell people I am a sexual person. I like people. I am attracted to people or attitude. I think many people are this way but we have been so taught to identify with the gay or straight thing we do not allow ourselves to be sexually free. I am hoping to change this.  

Who do you find are most attracted to you men, woman or transsexual’s as all our female friends think you’re so hot?
That’s awesome thanks! I think for most of my time in the public eye it has been gay men, but recently I have seen a huge shift in women becoming fans of mine. I think that is so awesome. It really shows how my work is changing the way people feel about gender.  

As a trans gendered person how did you get into adult films?
I was working behind the camera producing fetish films and transwomen websites. I knew there was nothing like me in the world of adult entertainment so I decided to start producing my own films and making FTM porn and the rest is history.

To follow Buck see his social media or as he says if you are interested in his campaigning, freedom fighting or finding out more ‘You can always find me and my work at www.buckangel.com or www.buckangelentertainment.com WOOF!!’

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Written by Paul Stag

Paul is an international porn star and a long time editor for Alphatribe magazine.

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